The feelings is so terrible...

The feelings is so terrible,
i try to control it, but i fail to do so.
I keep telling myself not to look back and just look forward,
but the bad feeling keep haunting me,
and i feel so helpless now.
Can i fix back what i had missed?
I need to do something to make myself feel better...
But I'm out of an idea,
i just can't think a better way to calm myself.
I feel headache,
i feel like crying,
i want to hide myself and cry my heart out...
I pray so hard in my heart,
and i really hope that God will answer my prayer...