RIP to you

Why this song play when i need someone the most,
i need a shoulder,
i need a pair of hands,
i need a pairs of ears,
and i need a sincere heart...
RIP to my dearest friend,
I knew you for around 28 months,
28 months, does it long enough for me to know you?
I thought that you will be my best friends forever,
i thought that you know me the best,
i thought that you are the special friend that i ever found,
i thought that what i did to you is priceless,
and i thought that you will be my friend forever...
but today i got a news that you're far away from me.
Thanks for being my friend , and light up my life once.
I knew that sooner or later you would be leave me,
i keep on believing that you will be recover one day,
but today you exhale your last breath.
Even though is difficult for me to accept that you're gone,
yet i have to accept it and move on with my life.
Dear friend, REST IN PEACE~

♥ My gratitude for u ♥

At last good news comes to me, i had waited for so long and it is really looooonnnnnggggg! i knew that i will only get this goods news by end of the year because my luck is always in the year end and not in the middle of the year, just like those day i met my SUPERMAN! hahahhahah

Thanks God that I'm not broke during this few months while I'm still hunting for job. I'm glad that my parents and sister do support me all the time by giving me so much of motivation, and of course with the financial support, hehe! Not much, but at least I'm not starve to death! I really appreciate them so much and glad that my parents NEVER nag me at all and rush me to get a job, although I'm stress free from my family, but i did gave myself lot of stress during this few month I felt bad and sorry to my beloved one while I'm still unemployed!

Then is my sweet heart, he has been driving me to all of the interview that i went in KL. I knew that he hate the jam and rushing here and there, but he still do it for me, I LOVE YOU Thanks a lot my fatty, i know you love me so JUST SAY IT!! LOL Don't become like "Daniel the denial"

At the same time i also have to thanks to a PIG that intro me freelance job and at least i got something to do and earn some pocket money, even though all of the tasks given is pressure me but i did gain some useful information from the tasks. Although it is just a part time, yet i have high demand on myself. Every time i went for any interview, she will definitely wish me good luck, then always ask me "how was the interview?", then every time i forget to sms her, then she will sms complaint why i didn't get back to her, then every time she said she will wait for my good news, and every time i will give her bad news.

Besides that, thanks to some other friends which had helping me to get a job, I'm touched of it and appreciate your help, you guys really being such a sweet heart and helpful person Last but not least, thanks to everyone who guide me throughout this few months, i love you guys!
I'm glad that i met nice peoples like my you all, my familymy darlingmy pigand my friends . What else I demand for?

♥ Bless everyone that i love is happy always no matter where are they and what are they doing♥

The inspiration from the woman with the giant legs

Read this to know more about her, or goolge yourself :
http://megasector.com/mandy-sellars-the-woman-with-giant-legs/

Watched " Woman with the giant legs", feel so heartache to see her with this don't know what syndrome, i felt gross and pity to her when i see her skinny face and body with the giant legs, i know it is bad to say so but i did felt that way. Her hand is skinner than me, her face is so skinny and it is so hard for her to bear her leg weight.

Somehow somewhere there are people out there is unlucky compare to us, and ithis s the GOD creations and it is gifted. No matter how we complaint why we are born in such way, we knew that we couldn't change anything beside accepting.

Eventhu i have a chopstick leg and sometimes i did complaint about it and envy those girl with long and beautiful leg, but in deep of my heart i did appreciate what i have. At least I'm not born with some impairment and I'm healthy at this moment, i will never know what will happen in future if i don't take good care of myself and be responsible to myself.

That's why i told myself that since GOD have given me a healthy body, i have the responsibility to take good care of my health, in addition i have the responsibility to take good care of myself in order not letting my beloved mama worried about me and if I'm fall sick, she will be the first and the last person to worried about me.

Today i felt like buying McDonald for my lunch, fast food is always my number one favourite, but when i recall back what i had promised to myself, i felt disgust for Mcd. Normally there will be a devil in my mind that keep on disturbing me to change my mind but today i made it =)

One day if i really ill, I'm the one who i should blame for and not others because everyone is responsible for their own health...

Appreciate what you have and take good care of it, because someday when when are ill, you will definitely regret of what you had done and not only you have to suffer, the people around you especually your belover one will suffer too.

THINK BEFORE YOU DO! YOU CAN CHANGE THE FUTURE!

慢慢地，我会习惯的

是否发现我的电脑，手机荧幕还有FB Profile，
已不再出现我和你的合照了，
很久了，
就连自己都记不起自己什么时候渐渐地，
慢慢地，一个个地填上了自己的单人照，
而我们的合照已不再是我最想看到的。
或许，
或许是自己心淡了，
或许是自己已灰心了。
我答应自己的事，
我一定会实现，
因为我已经慢慢地学会去实现我对自己的承诺。
很多事都是迟早的，
时间才是最好的证明。。。

请别再勉强我了，好吗？

心疼
是因为我 没办法告诉你真正的原因，
我能吗？
逃避，又 能逃多久呢？
今天，明天，后天，大后天。。。
我真的很想念你，
我真的很想和你在一起。
请别再勉强我了，好吗？
我的眼睛再看不下去了，
耳朵更不想听见那些声音了。
从一开始我都不觉得那地方是属于我的，
我只想要呆在属于我的避风港。。。

OH-POCOK!!!

Last night watched "Sayang-sayang",
is a baba nyonya comedy,
and the peranakan rap style is funny!
I heard the words "Oh-pocok!!" in the song,
sound familiar ya..
hmm, i used to "melatah"
OH-POCOK!!!
And Tracy & Sara used to laugh at me~
Hahaha...
But i don't know what does Oh-Pocok mean.
So typical nyonya huh!

Oh- pocok~

The bed sheet & the lazy people

After i took my lunch, i washed bed sheet and pillows casing while bathing, it took me around one hour in the bathroom. And that is the reason or secret how i maintaining my weigh, burn all the fat once after i ate, how i wish to become like a PIG (eat and sleep, do nothing).

FYI, the bed sheets and the pillows casing is all hand washed by me. And while i doing the washing, i compare the pillow casing that we bought and the one hand made by mama, the comparison is so obvious!!! Whereby the one that we bought, the color is faded away not even use it for two years, while the one hand-made and had been using more that ten years is still the same and the color even more attractive than the one we bought.

Hmm... then it reminds me of the secret how my mum preserve the color from faded away so that the quality and the quantity can last long, so that u can save money not to keep on buying the new ones.

The "petua" that had been practising since my grandma generation is really work and i don't think that the modern house wive nowadays will practise it. Maybe it sound familiar to u, perhaps it is not. The "petua" is rinse the bed sheet and the pillows casing during ur last rinse with the home-made glue. Listen carefully is home-made glue!!! And how to create the glue paste??

Ahha..., here is the method:
1. Tapioca starch mix with some water, stir it.
2. Add some hot water, stir it
3. DONE!!! Home-made glue paste, and if you're run out of glue u can try this method too.

And i still remember during my kindergarten and primary school, my parents don't really buy me glue and u can always find this home-made glue in my school bag. But the disadvantage of this glue is, it only last for few day, and after that it turn to become smelly.

Nowadays, who will still using this home made glue, especially the kids nowadays is pampered by the parents da, what they want the parents will definitely fulfill for them and that's really make them don't know the hard life that some people had been gone through! Besides that, the parents will only spoil and they will forever dependent to others!!

While I'm doing the washing in the bathroom, this came across my mind. I just wonder do the kids nowadays know how to wash their own clothes? Perhaps they don't even know how to wash their panty or underwear, everything is settle by their parents. Seriously i don't feel envy on this, except than looking down on this people!!!

There are alot of thought in my mind when i was doing the washing, when i see the the water that i soap the bed sheet is turning from grey into transparent clean water, i started to think how pity is the parents who do not have anyone to help them to do house chores. Even though my parents is not wealthy, but thanks God that my parents hv someone to help them do house chores and cooking when we are in Melaka. Hmm... I'm not giving compliment to myself, just that i had seen and observed so much what had happened around me, and i just wonder why these people don't feel ashamed of themselves being so lazy.

And oh ya, this remind me of another real story which is my conversation with one of my friend. We went to cafe to online, and i wanted to order something to eat and asked her wana shared with me or not, and she said she don't want to eat anymore because this few week she is jobless and she just stay at home and eat, she is gaining weight. Then i reply her, then do house chore la at home. After that her reply was so surprising, she said that "I"M NOT INTERESTED!!".

As what i know her, she is really lazy and never do any house chore, not even cleaning her own room!!! And u can see her car is mess like SHIT AND SMELLY!!! Lazy until that stage!!! I would said these people is useless!!! Seriously, i salute to her partner which can bear on her attitude and her dirty habit, yuck!!!!

Some people, i mean some parents will actually complaint about their kids being lazy and started to scold, yell to their children of doing nothing besides eating and sleeping! And i would said that it is too late ald, because these parents used to pampered their kids and instead of blaming the kids of not helping in doing house chores, the parents should self review that they had made a mistake by not asking and train their children since beginning!

So who do u want to blame? Blame yourself la!!!

And it is really funny when the parents said the children do not know how to cook, whereby the parents NEVER let their kid try before and NEVER ask them to step into the kitchen to learn, so how do they know???

That's why I'm strict to the people beside me especially those that i care, and i hate LAZY people especially GIRLS that do not know how to do house chores, because it really a shame that YOU AS A GIRL, YOU DON NOT KNOW HOW TO DO HOUSE CHORES!!!

And i always believed that the parents is the role model and very important in educating the child, pampered will only spoil your child and trouble yourself too!!!

So parents out there, do not neglect this responsibility, you are not only responsible in providing shelfter , foods and clothes to your children. You are responsible in educate your children to become an idependent person as well!

It is all about convocation

Convocation is END, but the memories and the friendship will NEVER END, i got the phrase from Sara (Friendship will never end). The day that i waited so long, finally arrived and now it is end, it left sweet and awesome memories that i will never forget.

I never felt any nervous before this special day until the moment that i stepped into the hall. And the worst thing is i felt sleepy on that day because the day before my convo i didn't sleep well, and the next day i have to get up so early. I was so afraid that i will make mistake on the stage, at first I'm thinking to wear high heel but i really afraid that i will felt down on the stage and become clown on that day.

I guess the reason why convocation is important to me is because it was my day, is MINE!!! is my convocation!!! That day is belong to all the graduan which they have make it after work hard from the three years of studying.

When i entered the hall, the first thing in my mind is searching where is my beloved one sitting, and i came to understand the meaning behind this. I was like a kid that hoping my beloved one to attend and see me on stage even though the process of receiving the scroll is just for few second. And now i really understand the kids' feeling when they have performance on the stage, i never know about this because i never have the opportunity being on stage till my convocation. In addition, that day also specially for all the parents to see their children successful graduated.

Thanks to those that wishes me, and the presents that i had received. My present:

My first blazer from mama.

Short pant from Huea.

Roses from family, mama said that everyone got flowers and i dun have, "kesian anak mak", so they bought me flowers :). Actually i dun mind la, as long they attended my special day that is more than enough, only picture can show that my roses is blooming forever, cos the roses is started to dried up ald, lucky they not buying me the big bouquet. Most of the girls like flowers, and no doubt i used to like it too because i can't resist the beauty of the flowers. But rationally i rather spend the money buying some useful stuff rather than spending hundred ringgit for something that will never bloom forever. But it doesn't mean that i never appreciate my convo roses, i do :) I know someone must be very happy if i said that i will never request for roses anymore. Eh... perhaps he can plant roses or any nice flowers and that will be more meaningful, just like how my mum brighten up the house with different kind of plant :) And Huea, You're right :)

Ah, this is from my lovely cousin sis Dorin. I used it to place some of my cosmetic, and some is still in my cosmetic bag. my interpretation of the sunflower is: to brighten up my life and my future :)

Surprise from cousin bro David and wife Candy, is table lamp. And it looks like me leh, skinny and the neck long long, LOL! So cute, i love it, but i broke one of its leg due to my carelessness :( No wonder some of my friends said that they are so afraid that they will break my bone la, what a funny joke huh. While my interpretation of this giraffe lamp is : lead and guide me when I'm in the dark :)

I also got ang pao from my eldest aunt that taking care of me when i was young, and some cash from papa :)

Thanks to my families, darling and friends. I love u guys so much!!!!

*More picture of my convocation will update soon*

What a disgusting head!!!!

Went to Cheras Pasar Malam with Shum-Shen and Huea on Saturday, and we SAW THIS!!! What shit is that?? Is an ox head hanging at the beef stall with the CURLY HAIR!!!! Seriously i was so "sua gu" to see this disgusting thing at pasar malam, YUCK!!!! Can we hang the PIG head at pasar malam too???

And this one lagi revolting, the intestines leh!!! WHY???

Walk and walk, at last something CUTE appeared~ Rabbit~ Huea ask me :" Cute meh???", hmm, compared to the horrible cow head, it is cute! But, the rabbits seem like not healthy, the fur went out of shape.

memories....

Went back UTAR to collect convocation robes and the process took almost FIVE hours, seriously what u need is to be smart and cut the Q and u will definitely save alot of time!!! Such a terrible Q. At the same time, I'm glad to met Jamie KuanRu on that day.

And at last i got my photo & group photo which is taken on March in UTAR, I'm doubt of UTAR photographer skill actually and the way they touch up the photo is really SXXX! I guess some of the photo is paid to touch up by so called skillful editor

This is the group picture chosen by majority, formal style. But i prefer the free style at below, so formal for what??? The formal one doesn't look organised anyways...Some more i blocked KuanRu leh, duh...why the photographer didn't tell me huh??? Sorry my dear~

I edited the effect of the free style group photo, and it looks like retro. No more study life, it left only memories. I missed you guys so much...

More photo of behind the scenes, click HERE

And this is the photo chosen & edited by the UTAR photographer, speechless! Cos i doesn't look good in the studio pic!

Huea prefer this one cos she said i look more Cxxxxxxxx & Exxxxxx. Sorry i don't really like to give compliment to myself one ,ok! So i have to XXX the words! FYI, this picture is not edited by the photographer ok! By the way, I'm shy in front of stranger's camera

After that, me, Sara, Tracy, Keong kor meet up with Yuen Jie at BBQ Chicken. We was so shock when we see him, he was like totally change the way he dress up! Thumb Up for him cos there is an improvement and looks better.

This picture remind me since the last one is Shabu-Shabu at SS2, missed those days...


Went Mid Valley with Tracy & bf, and Yuen Jie while waiting for my sweet heart finished work. Portuguese Grill which is our , is a must try food whenever we go Mid Valley.

The Green & The Red outing

Playing with the camera and trying to capture a nice and professional photo with the digital camera, and Huea i want the sharp and blur effect juat like your photo that i took (above), that is what i mean


This captured our eyes while we walked to the bus stop, recently i heard RED color. Red is the color of fire and blood, so it is associated with energy, war, danger, strength, power, determination as well as passion, desire, and love (citation: http://www.color-wheel-pro.com/color-meaning.html) Hmm, i cant find the author or whatever as the citation and I'm almost forget about APA citation da

More pictures for last week outing with family at HERE

Tree Frog

Get one for yourself.
Click Here
Wanted to choose hamster and insert in my blog sidebar,
but i found out this frog is funny!
Look like me,
hands and legs long long likes alien!
Not much gadgets in the link above,
but...hmm...
never mind la, give a try and choose which one u like.
Enjoy it

Last week...

Last Sunday i went to Loreal warehouse sales with Anna, not a huge warehouse sale, just some product and kinda squeeze in front of the counter. And this "aunty" is so annoying, trying the cosmetic and acting so "elegant" saying to her husband "darling, here macam macam bau la" , then complaint to the sales girl again" here very smelly leh".

Hey hello AUNTY, that is warehouse sales OK! Sure many people one la, and if you're so HIGH CLASS or ELEGANT or WHATEVER, then don't squeeze in the sales and buy CHEAP things, ok! Why not u just go to the shopping mall and gets the cosmetics??? Since you CANNOT tahan to squeeze and making yourself so pity have to smell BERMACAM MACAM BAU!!! Simple!!!

If not because my hp was low batt, i will definitely snap your disgusting FACE and post it here!!!

Then after the Loreal warehouse sales, we went to BIG apple online. Oh ya, thanks to Kuan Ru that she posted about the warehouse sales in her blog

For me, the best nasi lemak must have kangkung and sambal petai which is my favourite l And i was so concentrate enjoying my meal until i ignore my mum when she talked to me. After that, i told her that i was too concentrating eating and at last i came to understand why people always said that while eating, do not talk. And i guess that is the reason...

I'm going to ask mama cool this two dishes for me again on this weekend, love it so much . And i every time i view that two pictures, i will definitely get hungry AGAIN

And this is another new photo since the last is chopstick leg, love it so much! I heart photography, my passion