Alviss Kong's Suicidal Case.

Ok, recently everyone been talking about this silly guy Alviss Kong's suicide tragic. And i just got a clear photo on his last picture before he died and was surprised that actually was his last photo that he uploaded in Facebook before he jump off from the building, no wonder la that photo look ugly. I means looks weird with the eyes "sengit", that is the tears rolling in his eyes.

And some people even labeled him as ROMEO! Er, harlo...this is what you all call as RO-ME-O??? INSANE!!!

Seriously, i felt so pity to his family for this tragedy, i believed everyone who loved him would feel heartache for his leaving. 

Another silly thing is, before he committed suicide he still got mood to facebook-ing and count down the minute to jump off from building? Got mood to snap the teary face and uploaded in Facebook? You see, people nowadays are so into Facebook, whatever they do Facebook status will be the first one they think of it. NEVER FORGET TO UPDATE THE STATUS ON EVERYTHING THAT IS DOING (just like me). Even commit suicide also need to "hint" in Facebook, i wonder if he suicide by cutting his vein, i think he will posted even in detail of THE PROCESS OF SUICIDE!!! Cool right??? 

But still, this is a so sad that nobody can save him on time even with those "hint" that he mentioned in Facebook. Perhaps that is his destiny...? RIP Alviss Kong. 

Below is some photo that i taken from others' blog =)

The last photo that uploaded by him with the teary eyes.

The "hint" and the countdown.

Tonight, is the good night to blog....

I was looking forward, and i was excited!
But suddenly the feelings has faded away...
I'm playing Track 13, my all time favorite.
I feel calm and i feel like pouring out my feelings...
What a coincident that Track 13 is same with my number too.

Lappie sound system damaged, and it made me not comfortable with the unpleasant sound.
Yet, i still plug in my earpiece to listen to my all time favorite.
Repeat and repeat...it will never make me bored.

Started don't know how to 大声地和你说话，
and i've learnt how to 心平气和地和说话。

Perhaps i'm trying to avoid it to provoked again,
perhaps i've learnt a lesson,
perhaps i'm disheartened...?

I wanted to tell you that i don't like it when you raise up your voice!
I knew that there is something bothering you,
but it doesn't mean that you should replace that discomfort to me.
I'm trying to bear it, with the word "sorry"...?
I prayed that i would have thousand and even million of patience for everything.

It is not the first time, not the second times...
It will have more to comes....trust me!

Been emailed with a friend for couple of weeks,
talking about craps and some personal issue.
I hide the truth, the truth that i started to agree.
I debated with that friend whenever we came across that particular topic.
Indeed it was a fact, but i can't do anything to change it.

I asked myself so many times over the same question,
i observed...
and I even tried to be devil to myself,
but the angel in me trying to manipulate me.
The angel and the devil take place of each other till i found that both are actually the same!

I wonder what is the God's intention for everything that i'm going through.
Since young, i realized the fact.
I observed and i see what had happening...
I wanted to ignore but it seems like i'm fail to do so!

Recently read this in a newspapers,
Taiwan had the new culture whereby the ladies held a wedding without groom.
The reason is because they are confidence to live alone.
I was pretty agree on that!
This two weeks i was asking myself,
Why do people got married?
What is the main reason?
Is it all because of the abstract feelings that i doubt of its existence.
When i noticed my surrounding, i doubt of marriage!
Why do people get marry and make yourself suffer?
Two person live together will definitely have argument,
and if the argument already became part of the life,
maybe a routine of daily life, then why do people still want to engage together?
If two person is living in the condition that both parties are calculative,
and being selfish when it comes to money talk.
Then why do people still want to engage together since there are so many possibilities that will certainly happen.
Perhaps single will bring more joy?
A lot of people had this mentality that single is pathetic and everyone live in this world can't be alone. 
Hmm, i wondered!
Let's see,
If a woman would able to have a stable income, why do they need a man?
If a woman able to do everything by herself, why do they need a man?
And why do they need another person to interfere their life, with argument...or maybe with lot of trouble or problem?
Who said alone can't have fun too?
Hmm... I guess i'm standing in the circle that is difficult for me to step out of the circle!
Well, until now i don't see any positive side of marriage.
see no confident, hear no confident, feel no confident...
I believed of what 张小娴belief, and that's the reason why i love her prose.

The birthday song and the "red eggs"

Colleagues celebrated my birthday today,
do it in advanced due to certain reason.
Well, i don't really like to celebrate my birthday.
Perhaps it is the working place culture to do it for every birthday.
I do like the celebration, but not on my day.
I don't really have much memories on my birthday celebration,
there is once when i was a little girl,
my parents bought me a cake and i celebrated it with my neighbor.
Er...actually i'm not sure whether it was my birthday or my sis birthday.
Hmm...never mind la, i'm not so into my birthday celebration.
But seriously i felt so touched when my colleagues sang the birthday song to me.
Appreciated it <3

Here are some of the photo that i took when mum make the "red eggs"
for my lunar calendar birthday last Saturday and also Huea home made jelly<3
Wish that Huea can be together with me forever, i want her so badly!

THE ATTITUDE.

When it comes to money issue, I'M SENSITIVE!!!

I don't care what is your intention, i just hate to touch about this topic.

It is all because of your ATTITUDE toward EVERYTHING that make me don't feel like talking to you!

i missed you, popo!

I browsed through my older post,
and this post remind me of someone.

Someone that has already passed away for so many years,
Someone that will prepare "red eggs" for my birthday besides mama,
Someone that i missed so much!

Dear popo, how are you?
Do you know how i wish that you could be at here,
and mama even missed you more than me.
She just wish that she could hug you again and talk to you.

Fact of life*

It has been ages since the last post,hmm...
Everything is going as usual, just that i wish to have opportunities to meet up with my beloved friends.

Well, someone is approaching me in msn right now which is so irritates me.
I hope it won't spoil my mood to blog,
I guess this guy is trying to show off or wanting me to convey the message to his ex? CRAP!!!
Been typing for several posts but all of them end up with half way, i guess it is because of unnecessary distration!

Sometimes i really don't understand these people,
the hatred that they carried after broke off,
the humiliation that they pour to each other....
and both parties will trying to spread the different stories!
Another fact of life.

Met up with one of my girl friend recently,
just couple of hour spent with her, and i see another fact of life!
Hmm, perhaps girls should act in such way? 
I don't know how to describe it,
and when she out of  sudden "shoot" me with some sentences that is not related to our topic on that night,
i confirmed again with myself that "i will never go out with her anymore"!!!
I knew that you've everything that you want,
and your current bf is the third bf that i ever seen since last year until now,
it doesn't mean that you can be so boasting like everyone owe you...right?
Well, wish you all the best!

Hmm, is October now.
And i've been together with Big Cow for the third years,
wonderful!
I break my record, hahahahaha!
And i always told him that i want to break his first ex's record! 
Well, i admit that sometimes we do have argument and who doesn't right?
And whenever i'm sad and lost,
there is an "angel" who always be there for me (*you know who you are la huh, don't kei kei)
You know what, you are my babi forever <3
And this is another real fact of life! hahahaha.....

Hi baby.

今天在pantry和朋友聊天，

关于怀孕日记。

看着身边的朋友结婚生子，

我总是觉得莫名的兴奋与开心！

尤其是能近距离地摸摸朋友肚子里的宝宝。

然后顺着向宝宝说"hi baby"

不知道怎么地，

我就是很喜欢看这她们的宝宝 渐渐地在肚子里长大。

 

is Susi back?

Last but not least, is Susi back?

I almost forget about Susi, and she is so cute!

I mean KuanRu is cute bcos she asked about Susi =)

walk away to somewhere which is far....

Last 2 nights was really a bad night to me, i can't sleep and my mind can't stop processing those concerns that will never end!!! It was really mentally abused me!!!

Jobs, parents, home, life...

Been pop up in my mind for several night and the previous 2 nights was totally abused me, my eyes was really tired and i was exhausted but my mind do not want to rest and it cause me another sleepless nights by seeing the time getting nearer and nearer to 6.45am. I SHALL WAKE UP AT 6.45AM, AND I'M STILL AWAKE! I hope that tonight won't be that bad.

I'm lost! I just wish that i can be alone now, single and be far away from anyone. I'm struggling...i wish to let go everyone that loved me, and just live alone and start my new journey which is far far away! Been thinking to go far for many weeks, i mean like very far not within Malaysia and wish to leave everything behind my head.

I started to asking myself, what is the meaning of life? And is this what i want?? I'm stuck at no where until i lost my way!!! All i want is just being myself, do whatever i want... but can i just abandoned everything and being such irresponsible person and just walk away???

When i do not demand for more, and that is the time i started to let go because it is no longer in my concern... and i just want to be alone without any companion. 

纠缠着。。。

最近都在挣扎着一些问题，

我看到了我一早预测的。

或许现在的我正在追求着不一样的东西，

你都看到了吗？

放心，我还不至于爱慕虚荣！

我只是想要追求我想要的生活。

我不期盼些什么，

我只是很自私地在为我自己着想。

我们不是要为自己而活吗？

所以基本上我会这样想，是没错的吧！

原来不需要争吵，

也可以让我想要放弃的念头。

离开或不离开，

除非你能够明白我。。。

Snack it with the yummy Mister Potato Rice Crisps ♥

Mister Potato RICE CRISPS with 20% LESS FAT & cholesterol and trans fat free!!!

Everyone love the words LESS FAT, and no worries that you'll hardly gain weight with the rice crisps.

Hmm... I'm not a rice lover, and i think i shall replace my dinner tonight with the scrumptious potato chips =)

Decided to get all of the four flavors which is the original, sour cream&onion, hot&spicy and flame grilled BBQ. But too bad it was out of stock and only left original and flame grilled BBQ flavor. 

When i get back to home, Pico saw the mister potato and he kept following me whenever i go and he was trying to snatch it. It is not your foods, Pico! Please behave ok!!

Pico, listen to daddy's command!

SIT!!! SIT!!! and you'll get the yummy chips.

It seems like it is a blog post about a dog instead of Mister Potato Rice Crisps, LOL!

And at last i can spend my sweet time with Mister Potato Rice Crisps while watching drama, been "drama-ing" these few nights. And no more luring Pico with the chips because it is mine!!! 

A really good companion while "marathon" with drama.

Last attempt to lure Pico!

Pico, do you want to eat? It is yummy you know? LOL

Ok, you have to sit and listen to my command first. Yummy Yummy~

Hmm...actually you really can't have it even thought i would like to share with you.

Your first bite will definitely make you loose hair man!!

 

So what are you waiting for?

Let's snack it with no guilt!!!

empty chocolate with a perfect wrapper!!! ARGGGGG

Thought want to have a break have a chocolate this evening, so i opened up my fridge and found a box of chocolate. And i decided to pampered myself with a cup of coke and some chocolate by choosing the first chocolate in the box with the orange color wrapping paper, and when i pick it up i noticed that it was EMPTY inside, WTF!!!!!!

And after that i try to check each of the chocolate, and i found that OUT OF 6 CHOCOLATES that wrapped with orange color wrapping paper got 5 IS EMPTY!!! Who is the heartless seller that put in only the wrapper without chocolate???? DAMN!!!!

All the stupid stuffs that wrapped in the hamper can't be trusted ANYMORE!!! YOU'RE CHEATING!!!! Curse the stupid seller!!!!

 I feel like throwing this box of chocolate back to the seller!!! %$#@^&*(@#!$%^

"Little White"

Passed by the pet shop that Big Cow bought Pico, and i saw a "little white"!!! Ah....she is so lovely!!! My heart feel like buying her immediately but too bad my parents are not allow it, SAD!!!!!!!!! 

I spent one hour at the pet shop, playing with the little white and get some useful information from the lao ban niang!

I really feel like buying the "Little White" =(

P.I.C.O my cheefulnut

This few days was awesome with Pico beside me and i got the opportunity to stay in 1.3 Million house!!! Sorry that I'm being so "jakun", as i knew that it is impossible for me to have the chance to stay and live in such a Million price of house, the environment here is irresistible and how i wish that i have such a huge house =)

Wanted to snap some pictures of this house but because there is the cctv and i shall respect the owner too =)

Is good to have Pico with me these several days, I'm so tempted to get a toy poodle for myself!! I shall said that i want PICO!!!!! 

 

It is cute to see Pico beside me while I'm online in the room =) Mummy ♥ Pico!

Toy Poodle-PICO =)

TOY POODLE!!!! Can't believe that big cow bought a toy poodle, hmm...at first i was afraid of dog, but slowly i get used to it already yet i still phobia with dogs leh! I need to overcome this phobia =)

His name is PICO!!! I really can't wait to see him again, pico!

Nah, your new daddy! Mr Big Cow!

Doraemon??!! My new nick??? Hmm...

This morning have a short chit chat with Lily, and she called me "San Dora"???!!!

Ah ma, you dah tua ke? pandai pandai change my name huh, anyways i love it!

Thanks for the creative idea that you make me laugh =)

And then hor, don't know how TCK can relate that topic and together with my name with the suggestion of "DORAEMON" as my new name!!!

OMG!!! That was really a SUCK NAME DARLING!!!

No Doraemon for me ok!

It is really obvious that me and that creature got the different size ok!

He is just so CHUBBY and CUTE!! While I'm obviously SKINNY!!!

Where is the relation??

Anyways, i used to like Doraemon when i was young. I mean like it as in i did watched the cartoon on television, but not until crazy of this animation until my this age. Not even for Disneyland cartoon, Winnie the Pooh, Hello Kitty, Snoopy and all the cartoons that still exist until now. 

Sorry for the harsh words, can't take it when someone relate me with...er....weird thing...

Anyways, good night and just go ahead of whatever you like. And of course i have the thing that i like it too, which is BIG COW!! ♥

DON'T BE THICK FACE AND I WILL ALWAYS WELCOME YOU TO MY BLOG!

I get to know this funny thing whereby some people thought that my post in Facebook and in this Blog was about a particular person, and DID I EVER MENTIONED THAT PARTICULAR NAME IN MY BLOG? Found out this from the discrepancy when another particular person talk and also from my Live Traffic Feed that catch all the "foot print" when the reader drop by to my blog. And from the trace back, that is how they search my blog.

1. Go to "Google".

2. Type in "cassandra cxxx sxxx kxxx blog". (I wonder why got such silly people search my blog by key in my FULL NAME!!! GOK!!!)

3. Then wala, "READER" found my Blog name "Cassandra Chua". 

WELCOME TO MY BLOG!!!(P/S: I'm always welcome YOU!)

I LOVE to write, LOVE to write everything that i have observed, LOVE TO WRITE THE "HIDDEN FACT!!!" And the most important thing that i would like to tell my "LOVELY READER" is, you don't need to be so troublesome google just to search my blog website address, all you need to do is JUST ASK FROM ME AND IT IS MY PLEASURE TO TELL YOU THE URL OK!! And it is obviously that i didn't hide anything from anyone and ANYONE CAN READ IT!

Just a genuine REMINDER to my READER, don't ever felt bad after you have read this blog because you have choose to walk in to this space and always bear in mind that the article is nothing to do with you. My life is not only you and you and you...and YOU!! I got so many things to do and i faced and facing so many people in my life. So DON'T PERASAN OK!!!

All i want to said is don't attempt to become like a PUSSY CAT if you're a the hidden tiger, because it is really irritating to call you "MEOW~~ PUSSY CAT~~"

April outings

Advanced i already posted all of these picture in my facebook, April outting was awsome, early of April i went to Medan, mid April i went to Penang and end of the month i went to Gadek Hot Spring at Alor Gajar. Medan with colleague, it was just an experience. While Penang trip was with my ♥, and it was definitely awesome because i have someone special with me. And for end of the month, i went to somewhere in Melaka for hot spring, the water was really HOT and it makes me felt dizzy and dificculties to breath, hmm...it was a good try but i don't think i will go there again, haha! 

So here are some of the picture taken in April**

Yah, that is Wan Ling and YeeHeng's Baby boy name Jeffery =) He is chubby cutebby, visited him in Penag eh...i think is in Butterworth, can't remember where is where already =P Baby boy will always be my first choice, bluek!!

Ok, this is the only nice food that we had in Penang. Anyways, we do not have much opportunity to explore all the foods in Penang *REGRET* but i will visit Penang again one day, weewee~ Oh ya, this is ASAM LAKSA la~

Woohoo, going to reach KEK LOK SI!!! ----> *This way please*

Focus on the "syampu yang paling laris-Follow Me shampoo", hmm....oh ya??

KEK LOK SI, here i come!!!

Tortoise, living in the pool. Oh ya, another interesting thing happenat here is an ang moh zha bo took my pic,i don't know for what purpose lo but she sid is for her ownselve, maybe she never seen a girl that is so skinny before... Haha! 

One of the view in KEK LOK SI, there are many different type of temples around there and it really makes me calm =)

He look fierce, yah! The weather was hot, and it was REALLY HOT!!! Yet he was patiently wait for me while I'm in one of the temple doing my prayer.

i ♥ my fatty

-Beautiful scupture-

This one huh, not really worth going up there since it is still under construction.

And wala~~The cable lift to go up thereeeee

-The HUGE Guan Yin-

On top of the hill ♥

After visit the Kek Lok Si, visited Batu Feringgi in the evening.

Always ♥ Beach

I just want to walk with you now and forever ♥

Act Cute!

But then end up i walk alone on the beach, where is he?

I can't remember what beer is this, ifnot mistake is German beer. Yah, is nice! *FOCUS THE ANG MOH!!! FOCUS ITTTTT....hmm, nothing, for fun*

Pizza, beer, the sand, the breeze, the sound of the waves...the relaxing~

At night, we went to Gurney Drive to try out the foods. So called "famous char kuey tiao", we got the wrong one =(

Cam-whore in the room =P

Been using this hp to snap picture for almost 4 years, i need a digital camera!!!

Can you see the rich man "TOY" at the ferry terminal.

And the BIGGEST one is MY TOY!!!

Penang bridge ^^

On the way to IPOH!!! makan-makan~

And that all for the 3 days 2 night Penng trip, thanks Fatty ♥

And below is my activity with my gals at the end of April. 

 

Forced to smile huh, the water is really hot! 

Woohoo~~~

 

That's all for my April outing, actually i hate April. But those activities did colored up my terrible April. Hoping for a better May =)