Yesterday our presentation topic was "Adolescent Emotional Development". During the presentation Jamie had presented the argument part and im not rily agree with the argument actually, LOL! Because acording to Anna Freud, adolescent who act normal during the adolescent period and puberty period is not normal, in the other word is "abnormal". And the argument also stated that the article is too negative, and she is handling argument part so she has the right not to agree with the article. And surprisingly when she asks our tutor and our tutorial mate do they feel stress during that period, all of them said that "STRESS-FREE"!!!
And i was like "OMG"!!! u all are so fortunate man!!! For my information, i was having the hard time during adolescent, is not all the time is stressful but i did faced stress!!! And i guess everyone is different, and if according to Anna Freud im consider as normal, and those ppl who said that they are stress free are actually abnormal???
I still remeber that my adolescent period was full with depression and anxiety! And even now these two friends tend to come and visit me whenever they want! It exists in my life since i was young, and these two terms is so familiar to me! I started to observed alot of things in my life since i was in primary school, i dont really have sweet memory and strong friendship during primary school time. Im quiet person, i go to school alone, i study alone, i enjoy my break time alone, and most of the time im alone... i dont have alot of friends around me, and peopeople tend to verbally bully me! And i never give any feedback and just remain silent...Poor me! Teachers teased me, classmate laughed at me, canteen worker teased me too!!! And my only friends are my sister and neighbours (Mei Lian & Cheng Yen). Hmm...i missed those time and i miss them~
While my secondary period i started to mix with others...during that period, it is believed that adolescent tend to have mood swings and according to G. Stanley (if im not mistaken, cos lazy wana refer my note), this is the period of "Storm & Stress". The mood, the emotions is easily up and down...I started to become sensitive on friendship; i care and put them as my priority. I changed my mood easily and rapidly bcos of friends, i try to disobey and detached from parents...And usually adolescents will have these kind of symptom during their development. Most of the adolescents tend to become rebellious during this period.
Yes! my emotion was easily up and down, and there is a period whereby im totally passive in everything, i dont talk to anyone even my family, i hide myself, i dont joined my friends, i remain silent most of the time and live in my own world. I still remeber there is one day after class, i walked back and my friend also using the samw way to go back and she shouted my name, i guess she want me wait for her and walked back home together, but i turn my head see her and i never gave her any response, i just continue walked! Most of the people tend to think that im acting cool, and a weird person. Hmm, and most of the people who dunno me definately will think this way, and i will never explained to others y i behave in such way and who am i. Only those people who after all close with me will find that actually im not like that kind of person like what they think before! And i can say that i only have one friend which is truly understand the real me... i used to jot down all my feelings on papers when i was in secondary school, i burn some of the note that i had jot down bcos i believed that it wil burn away all my unhappiness. i used to care so much about friendship, and i was so afraid that the friendship will faded away...and in the long run, it cause me to have anxiety!
I had gone through all this, and even now these two friends (depression & anxiety) still with me, but at least i manage to overcome it and i had understood the reason behind it. Perhaps it is the advantage of learning psychology :) yet, sometime i also allow myself to "enjoy" the depress moment, it sound weird but this is me!! There is alot of hard time i had gone thru and it rily make me learned and see things with different angle.
I started to believed my 6th sense since i was young, and i never tell anyone about it cos i afraid they will said that im insane! I dunno that "power" is 6th sense, i just knew that it is something special that i dunno how to explained. I started to believed in nature since i was in primary school, and there is a story that sound childish that happened to me. Since i was small, my study abilty is consider as not that "excellent", and i never get into top 10 in class before. But somehow when i was in primary 4, i managed to get into top 3!!! That was the first time i get such a good result and the worst thing is even my dad also dun believed it and just ignore me when i told him about the good news! I never blame him cos even myself also cant believed it, and there is a question in my head during that time. I never had any confident and hope in scoring a good mark. In my memories, i never work SUPER hard for the exam i guess, and everything was so normal in my study, but why i can score so well??? PLEASE im not showing off here, just that i still wondering is it a coincident? I was so blur that time and it seem like a dream for me...
The question still in my head till now! And the real story begin from here...i was satying at "runah papan" and behind my house is a huge empty land. My parents make full use of the land by planting alot of different kind of vegetables, and every evening my dad will water all the plants. There is one day i take over my dad duties throughout the year, i water all the plants every evening and it me few hours to complete watering the plants. The land was so big and im using the most typical way to water it by carried the water bucket by bucket and between my hse and the empty there is one ditch and i have to cross over the ditch back and forth for several times. And can u imagine my size with the bucket of water for the whole land?? When i think back, im kinda pity myself...But im ok with it, and i get used to it after all.
And i only carried that duty when i was in primary 4, and the question is here. Why i score so well in primary 4 and with my duties to water the plants, is there any relationship between this two variables?? "m still doubt about it, and the nature...is there any relationship betwwen these three?? DOUBT~Because i water the plants and therefore i score so well and all this while i result was in the bottom and why only that year my result was in top 3??? And i NEVER put any special effort on that year, i swear!!!
It remind me alot of my childhood memories...i still remeber that i started to do hsework when i was in primary 2, mum had trained me and my sister to be responsible on our own stuff, we learned to washed school shoes, iron school uniform, sweep and mop the floor...Thanks to my mum that teached us all these and i like this kind of parenting style:)
me and my sis will actually take turn to washed the school shoes and iron the school uniform, and sometime when we get lazy we will throw all the duties to either one of us to complete it.And i still remeber that the iron that i used is the one typical type which is heavy type and there is few time i get injured by the iron bcos it is too heavy for me, and i was skinny and small size during that time! ( & even now im still skinny). And everytime after finished iron schook uniform, i will drag more clothes to iron & it seem like i was addicted to iron clothes~and after satisfied with ironing, my hand was like going to broken into pieces, tired~ and that is my lesson on learning how to iron clothes:)
I was attended to noon class during my first three years in primary school due to lack of classes, EVERYDAY before go to schook i will sweep and mop the floor (sound like very hardworking huh! but is true), and when i changed to morning class, the first thing i will do after i woke up is boiled water for breakfast, it was like a routine for me :)
Most of the young people now especially from urban are are too pampered and too dependent on the parents and maid. They dun even have to do all the hsework for their entire of life!!! and everything will be done and settle by the parents or the maid, how fortunate r theyhuh!!! But, im glad that i had learned all these at my young age and furthermore doing hsework is part of my HOBBIES!!! :) It is so pathetic to see those people that duno how to do the basic hsework, and not only that, they used to be very bossy and keep on complaining! Although my parents is not educated, but they know how to guide and educate their children, and althu we r not from the rich family background, and we had gone thru alot of hardest time but im rily proud of my dearest parents! Thanks for everything that they had teached me and my sis, and the limitless love that they had given. I LOVE U PA& MA~
